Friday, March 31
Thursday, March 30
Age Discrimination
As a teenager, I can't say I have received adequate respect from malls, restaurants, fastfoods or any kind of business outlets. I am actually not alone in this social discrimination. Almost every teen I know are treated rather indifferently by people in the reatail world. It is stereotypical that the puberty or adolescent age span, especially in the middle class is considered not to be a business target. They always think that we are too young to buy anything, and we re left disrespected and even snubbed. I admit that this is slightly true, we cant reall afford to buy as much as my parents, but is that reason enough to be left neglected? Its only very rare for me to be greeted when I enter stores or restaurants, and it always make me feel bad. Even if their customers cant afford, they should not discriminate them openly, and obviously.
I always go back to stores that feels like I am welcome and skip the ones that feel so indifferently. But so far, some restaurants and stores are strategizing to treat customers better, no matter what age (Like Pizza hut Bistro,). But still, many business are left to the discriminative perspective, which only leads more people away. If kids feel welcome, they can publicize that store to friends and mature friends, right? I dont really blame them 100%, cause the business world is not a walk in the park, and its just hassle to attend customers who are really not gonna buy anything. I can understand the stress that entails it. How can you become so welcoming amidst stress?
Of course, it is mildly our fault. Teenagers, who are pathologically and impulsively impressing their friends, might degrade our reputation as respectable customers, especially those who flee before they can ever receive the bill. As teenagers, we might not be actually proficient in the inhibited etiquette, and we mas as well be very inhibited.
I dont see this issue to be solved peacefully yet, but it is our duty, as the new generation to uphold our reputation.
I always go back to stores that feels like I am welcome and skip the ones that feel so indifferently. But so far, some restaurants and stores are strategizing to treat customers better, no matter what age (Like Pizza hut Bistro,
Of course, it is mildly our fault. Teenagers, who are pathologically and impulsively impressing their friends, might degrade our reputation as respectable customers, especially those who flee before they can ever receive the bill. As teenagers, we might not be actually proficient in the inhibited etiquette, and we mas as well be very inhibited.
I dont see this issue to be solved peacefully yet, but it is our duty, as the new generation to uphold our reputation.
Wednesday, March 29
Paint It Black
This song made me feel good about myself everytime I get my heart broken. The lyrics and rhythm is just so inspiring, inspiring me to not to care what other people think. Its one of my favorites:
I see a red door and I want it painted black
no colors anymore, I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
I see a line of cars and they are painted black
with flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
like a new born baby it just happens every day
I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it's heading into black
maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts
it's not easy facing up when your whole world is black
I wanna see it painted painted, painted black, oh baby
I wanna see it painted painted, painted black, oh baby
No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the setting sun
my love will laugh with me before the morning comes
I wanna see it painted, painted black, oh
black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun blotted out from the sky
painted, painted, painted black oh baby
painted painted, painted black
On love...
I was once asked, what will I follow, my heart or my head? In the context of commitment love of course, not neccesarily family love or friendship. It was such an easy question for me, back then when I was so cynical and naive about the whole concept. I answered the question with both. I thought it was so easy to follow your heart and the same time consider the factors, whether finacial or what not. Now, I've learned that the decision is not something that you can make in just 10 minutes. I believe, once in love, there will be a war. A mental war between the divinely bestowed natural instinct of compassion and love, and the socially adapted idea of acceptance, social code and discrimination in this superficial society, or just plain practicality. Though sometimes the heart has a bigger voice and influence on us, we are constantly tugged by the fear of instability. Of course, we are taught to follow what is true in our heart and by what other people say. Thus we are left to believe that our feelings of compassion are more massive. But are these feelings that important? What if they are just effects of chemical triggers inside our body? chemical reocurrence that blinds us to see the reality and the future?
Love in fact, is a very powerful matter, given to us for a particular reason. One question I would like to pose is: Is love just an obstacle in life, socially adapted as a requirement and code of acceptance in our society, in short, overrated? Maybe we are placed in this world not to fall in love but to love one another as bretherens. Furthermore, maybe marriage is not really that important. So many people are imprisoned by unhappy commitment; imprisoned by spousal abuse, adultery, fear of being alone....I am not actually cynical about love, but my intentions lie basically on sharing the thoughts that are lingering in my mind.
But still, I would like you to think about it.....
Love in fact, is a very powerful matter, given to us for a particular reason. One question I would like to pose is: Is love just an obstacle in life, socially adapted as a requirement and code of acceptance in our society, in short, overrated? Maybe we are placed in this world not to fall in love but to love one another as bretherens. Furthermore, maybe marriage is not really that important. So many people are imprisoned by unhappy commitment; imprisoned by spousal abuse, adultery, fear of being alone....I am not actually cynical about love, but my intentions lie basically on sharing the thoughts that are lingering in my mind.
But still, I would like you to think about it.....
Claret's unorganized recognition day
Yesterday was our recognition day. I didn't receive anything great, I was just awarded (or supposed to be) with certificate for being a member of the choir, as well as 9 of my choir mates. My parents, and one of my brothers were there. i told them not to go, but they said I worked hard for this, and they still went. Fresh from our experience with my Brother's recognition, I learned not to trust recog day, wherein my borther and his bandmates were skipped in the list of awardees. Never thought that will happen again. Not only na hinanap pa yung certificate namin when we got up, 4 lang yung binigay! We were ten! we told Ms. Rubinol, and she impatiently approached the officials. They were inconsiderate enough to put the blame on Ms. Rubinol for not checking the certififcates. She replied that no one asked or prompt her to check. They said that it will be given nalang on card day. We walked out early, right after the violin intermission.
I wasnt really expecting anything great, I mean the practice was futile, I think there were only 2 days of preparation and very incomplete attendance. Despite those disasters, I had fun. I met new people and I had fun with my choir mates. I enjoyed the intermissions further more, and from that I learned na ayos lang magkamali. One intermission included my friend, and he didnt hit the high notes. Me, as an audience, didnt care that much really. i felt actually proud that he smiled at his mistakes pa.... and I guess many felt that way too. He had a nice voice rin pala..
I just hope that they (claret) would be more organized in their programs. Mom actually told me that he will write to the principal and the director. Im guessing that makakalimutan niya lang. :)
I wasnt really expecting anything great, I mean the practice was futile, I think there were only 2 days of preparation and very incomplete attendance. Despite those disasters, I had fun. I met new people and I had fun with my choir mates. I enjoyed the intermissions further more, and from that I learned na ayos lang magkamali. One intermission included my friend, and he didnt hit the high notes. Me, as an audience, didnt care that much really. i felt actually proud that he smiled at his mistakes pa.... and I guess many felt that way too. He had a nice voice rin pala..
I just hope that they (claret) would be more organized in their programs. Mom actually told me that he will write to the principal and the director. Im guessing that makakalimutan niya lang. :)
Summer prison
It's so hot! Well, its already summer, and we really cant blame anyone or anything. Yesterday, sleeping in the afternoon was a really bad idea. After at least 3 hours of sleep, i woke up so dehydrated and so sticky that my first instinct was to take a bath. After that, I drank some water, but unfortunately, walang malamig, lahat sobrang luke warm. I had to put 3 ice in the glass and put it inside the freezer for a couple of minutes. I cooled of at my parent's room, fresh from air con.
That evening, I had to sleep at my parent's, cause of the freaking heat (only air-conditioned room in the house). Miss ko na Christmas!!!! I thought this ridiculous heat is the worst part of summer.
Guess I was wrong.........
I came to the idea that maybe summer isnt that great. I dont really remeber if I was excited about summer or what, but I feel so empty and scared of doing nothing for such a long time. I couldnt really trust my friends to fill the void, most of them are home buddies, and considering money, I cant afford frequent outings. There are so many people I miss. Even though internet offers easy communication, it just feels different than normal encounters. I actually planned to make this summer fruitful, focusing on skill enhancement. After just a few weeks, it wasnt enough to make me happy. I never missed school so much before. I dont know why but I feel like a prisoner, no where to go.... a dreamer, no future to look forward to..... a bum, whose companies are only himself and the streets (or in my case, the walls)
I actually realized this time of year how much Ive changed since the first day my sophomore year. Now that schools away from me, I can think of so many things I could have done, or shouldnt have done. I realized how many people I have taken for granted, and so many blessings I have taken for granted. Now that I have come to realize how much of an insensitive prick I've become, I think God is doing things to make me feel what other people felt back in those school days. I never felt so sorry for doing something. Now, I feel proud of myself for facing these regrets and insecurities. I know that its for my own good.
I just want to say how much I am sorry to those people I hurt, and to those people whom I shouldve paid attention more. I guess it might be fear... fear of accepting other people in my lives... fear of being hurt... fear of change.....
That evening, I had to sleep at my parent's, cause of the freaking heat (only air-conditioned room in the house). Miss ko na Christmas!!!! I thought this ridiculous heat is the worst part of summer.
Guess I was wrong.........
I came to the idea that maybe summer isnt that great. I dont really remeber if I was excited about summer or what, but I feel so empty and scared of doing nothing for such a long time. I couldnt really trust my friends to fill the void, most of them are home buddies, and considering money, I cant afford frequent outings. There are so many people I miss. Even though internet offers easy communication, it just feels different than normal encounters. I actually planned to make this summer fruitful, focusing on skill enhancement. After just a few weeks, it wasnt enough to make me happy. I never missed school so much before. I dont know why but I feel like a prisoner, no where to go.... a dreamer, no future to look forward to..... a bum, whose companies are only himself and the streets (or in my case, the walls)
I actually realized this time of year how much Ive changed since the first day my sophomore year. Now that schools away from me, I can think of so many things I could have done, or shouldnt have done. I realized how many people I have taken for granted, and so many blessings I have taken for granted. Now that I have come to realize how much of an insensitive prick I've become, I think God is doing things to make me feel what other people felt back in those school days. I never felt so sorry for doing something. Now, I feel proud of myself for facing these regrets and insecurities. I know that its for my own good.
I just want to say how much I am sorry to those people I hurt, and to those people whom I shouldve paid attention more. I guess it might be fear... fear of accepting other people in my lives... fear of being hurt... fear of change.....
Monday, March 27
Reccomendation list
Movies:
1. An Unfinished life- (Morgan Freeman, Jennifer Lopez, Robert Redford) An all-star cast. A surprisingly good and touching film about the true meaning family of and forgiveness. It presents a realistic plot that anyone can relate to. The movie is not trying hard to make itself look good, but still manages to grip anyone's appreciation. Great performance from the cast.
2. Million Dollar Baby-(Hilary Swank) A story that will make you want to cry. It tells about the story of Maggie Fitzgerald, a boxer who meets a coach who, though discriminative at first of maggie, will unexpectedly be maggie's only true friend amidst their painful past and present lives. Its ending is one of the most surprising ending I saw.
3. The Village-(Dallas Bryce Howard) One could really expect great things from M. Night Shyamalan, the director. He tells the story of the people who lives in fear of the so called "creatures" roaming in the woods that surrounds their village. Its amazing cinematography, plot, performance and direction is something you would not want to miss. This is the kind of movie that got me talking and thinking for days.
4. Good girl- (Jennifer Aniston) A break from Jen's usual congenial roles, this movies lets us peek into the dark story of adultery, due to frustration of reality. Jen really gave a beleivable performance, allowing the viewers to feel what it is like to be the main character.This is certainly not your usual love story. The great thing about the movie is that it exuded the ambience of frustration and mediocrity that Jen's character is feeling. Watch it..
5.A Walk to Remember-(Shane West, Mandy Moore) This is the movie that freed Mandy Moore from the stereotypical perception of her with the pop blondes. She gave a good performance but doesnt show satisfying amounts of versatility. The movie is a good tear jerker, making us see the true meaning of love. (the album is great too!)
6.50 First Dates- (Adam Sandler, Drew Barrymore) Adam shifted from his usual 100% comedic plots, and decided to put a new twist in this new movie. It tells about the story of perseverance in the name of love. Henry (Adam) continually pursue Drew, who is the only one among the many girls he have been dating to shattered his fear of commitment, despite her short term memory loss. Its one of the most touching and moving movies I saw.
7. Sister Act-(Whoopi Goldberg) Of course, you might have already heard of this. An inspiring and funny film.
1. An Unfinished life- (Morgan Freeman, Jennifer Lopez, Robert Redford) An all-star cast. A surprisingly good and touching film about the true meaning family of and forgiveness. It presents a realistic plot that anyone can relate to. The movie is not trying hard to make itself look good, but still manages to grip anyone's appreciation. Great performance from the cast.
2. Million Dollar Baby-(Hilary Swank) A story that will make you want to cry. It tells about the story of Maggie Fitzgerald, a boxer who meets a coach who, though discriminative at first of maggie, will unexpectedly be maggie's only true friend amidst their painful past and present lives. Its ending is one of the most surprising ending I saw.
3. The Village-(Dallas Bryce Howard) One could really expect great things from M. Night Shyamalan, the director. He tells the story of the people who lives in fear of the so called "creatures" roaming in the woods that surrounds their village. Its amazing cinematography, plot, performance and direction is something you would not want to miss. This is the kind of movie that got me talking and thinking for days.
4. Good girl- (Jennifer Aniston) A break from Jen's usual congenial roles, this movies lets us peek into the dark story of adultery, due to frustration of reality. Jen really gave a beleivable performance, allowing the viewers to feel what it is like to be the main character.This is certainly not your usual love story. The great thing about the movie is that it exuded the ambience of frustration and mediocrity that Jen's character is feeling. Watch it..
5.A Walk to Remember-(Shane West, Mandy Moore) This is the movie that freed Mandy Moore from the stereotypical perception of her with the pop blondes. She gave a good performance but doesnt show satisfying amounts of versatility. The movie is a good tear jerker, making us see the true meaning of love. (the album is great too!)
6.50 First Dates- (Adam Sandler, Drew Barrymore) Adam shifted from his usual 100% comedic plots, and decided to put a new twist in this new movie. It tells about the story of perseverance in the name of love. Henry (Adam) continually pursue Drew, who is the only one among the many girls he have been dating to shattered his fear of commitment, despite her short term memory loss. Its one of the most touching and moving movies I saw.
7. Sister Act-(Whoopi Goldberg) Of course, you might have already heard of this. An inspiring and funny film.
Cranky pants
This past few days I feel so cranky... and I hate myself so much for it. Dont really know what's going on, but I surely hope na phase lang to... Like when someones gonna call, i feel really irritated na naistorbo ako na sobrang pinamamadali ko yung usapan. I also feel so irritated when nakukulit ako ng friends ko, and when we disagree on something and when they become so stubborn. I feel horrible, lalo na yung mga effects nito sa family and friends ko. I think na maybe self-centeredness na 'to. I should really be more sensitive to the feelings of others. But somehow, I feel like the reason is on the tip of my tongue, pero di ko lang malaman kung ano. I am thinking God is testing me, on how much I am willing to change for Him. This actually strengthens my point na moods are also bumps on the roads, supposed to be overcome.
Promise try ko magbago!! : }
Buhay at saysay
Everything are tests to enhance our characters. Sex, money, love, success, career, all of these things are all distractions. These are masked with happiness, promising pride and fulfillment, but only leave vanity and hollow purpose, or the lack of it. Thats why so many people feel so empty (which i also gone through, and i am sure i will go through again in the fututre).
I always make sure that I will be prepared to face the people in this world, who will surely hurt me and discourage me to be what i am planned to be. I believe that everything the world tells to be are just leading to hollow meaning. Marriage, courtship, succesful careers, fame, acceptance.... these are all pretetions, brought about by media (a subconcious brainwasher). I thank God for giving us a chance to choose between the world and Him, and for making me see that, I guess its those 15 years of tribulations I am continually going through. I do my best to give my 100 years to God. Though I am frequently distracted, I stand up once again. So what if I dont get married? So what if I'm not rich? Impressing people is not worth those precious 100 years. I am here for a purpose, and i will do my best to fulfill that.
I always make sure that I will be prepared to face the people in this world, who will surely hurt me and discourage me to be what i am planned to be. I believe that everything the world tells to be are just leading to hollow meaning. Marriage, courtship, succesful careers, fame, acceptance.... these are all pretetions, brought about by media (a subconcious brainwasher). I thank God for giving us a chance to choose between the world and Him, and for making me see that, I guess its those 15 years of tribulations I am continually going through. I do my best to give my 100 years to God. Though I am frequently distracted, I stand up once again. So what if I dont get married? So what if I'm not rich? Impressing people is not worth those precious 100 years. I am here for a purpose, and i will do my best to fulfill that.
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