The Sanctity of Marriage

Its official, I am now a pessimist on regards to marriage. I never really see the eternal love and happiness marriage promises to people. All I see is a never ending frustration of each other. Well maybe this might be my recently discovered fear of commitment. I didnt really go through any realtionships yet, so I dont have any evidenciary suport or experiences to back up my theory. Its just I dont see myself being happy with another person for all of my life. Im still confused abput the love concept though. I dont really know if I still believe in love. For me, love is a trap, a blindfold, an illusion.... a temporary high that disguises itself as an everlasting happiness. The truth is, theoretically, is that love is a mirage. It makes us believe that our expectations for our partners, our ideal view of them, is true.

Its true that amidst all our problems, our true color shows. And that is what happens in marriages, facing problems together. When our true color shows, we are left but depressed, reminiscing our past ideals and dreams, desiring again for that past love we once knew. This might be brought about by media's overrated opinion of marriage. They exaggeratedly tell us all the wonders and glory it brings, which maybe a rare occasion in reality, and we are left unsatisfied because our realtionships were not as good as we have expected.

The only problem people who doesnt believe in matrimony is of course loneliness. We might have a lot of friends but at the end of the day, it all comes down to family. For me, I might consider relationships. But I dont want to go as far as that. I can live with a person but no marriage. I am also dreaming of adopting. I can see myself as a single parent. It maybe a a hell of a long term goal, being young as I am, but thinking about my future, which aims to ignore social norms, is fun. Maybe my views will change later, but I am just glad of outpouring my thoughts while they are still fresh.