Just watched 2 episodes of Grey's Anatomy today, taking advantage of the suspension of classes due to hurricane Glenda. As I was watching the episodes, I began to think to myself if I really want to be like them when I grow up. I mean, all of their hours are spent being doctors, its as if they dont have anytime to not be doctors.
Im not boasting or anything when I say that I am good at a lot of stuff, cause I really am. I could easily have made up my mind about a course ill take up in college, but this is a decision that will determine my life forever. Its not a piece of cake. Its just that I was taught by my parents that choosing my course is very important business. She would normally retell stories of people she knows that have chosen courses that wasnt really stable, like Fine Arts and stuff.
Truth be told, I actually want to have a job that are a little risky, jobs that will be my outlet of creativity. The problem is, I am scared. Scared financially and emotionally. You might have already got the clue that I want a job that is related to art, a profession that doesnt really promise a stable life. I mean, what if im not good enough? what happens then? Will I live out of a low pay job?
My safest choice now is medicine, but the time lost is a total drag. 14 years. What if at the end of my studies, I realized I dont want to be a doctor? Though I enjoyed myself in the frog dissection, that will be a pretty unstable premise if it's the right choice. That doesnt really prove that I will be happy for the rest of my life.
Thinking about the possibilities of taking up an art-related course is very exciting. My mom said that when I become a doctor, i could still sideline to show my work to society, but will that be enough? Will that be good enough? Im not sure anymore that I will be noticed that way, and Im not sure I can balance the two career. I want to share what I have to society. If i do take up an art course, I could have the credentials to back up my application to a company that will support me and help me to show off what I got. Taking it up might mean that I have an oppurtinity to enhance what I got.
Now Im thinking if I should follow what the BIble said: "Dont worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. There much problem as is today." I cant afford to think about today only. Philippines is a third world country, and a job would be so hard to attain. Im already a high school junior, the most crucial year of my life. Should I step outside the comfort zone?
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